Choosing Faith

For Sale by Owner. Four daunting words to any individual. Over the past few months, my husband Caleb and I have been preparing to sell our first home and move while I’m still in my second trimester. As we sat down to crunch numbers for the price of a different home, I found myself overwhelmed with information. The numbers jumped off the computer screen. How would we be able to afford a higher mortgage payment while raising a child AND losing 2 months of income for maternity leave? I felt like we were desiring the impossible, standing in front a mountain asking it to move. I found myself paralyzed by fear, the uncertainty of when, where, and how.

As I struggled to hold back tears, Caleb leaned over to me and reminded me that where God calls us, He provides for us. We simply have to trust Him, and remember that we do not know all the answers.

Our fear either leads to surrender or to suffocation.

As we walk through life, we will encounter situations of uncertainty and of heartbreak. We become nervous in the present and fearful of the future.

Will what happened in Parkland, Florida happen at my kids’ school?

Will another job line up after this layoff before our next bill needs to be paid?

Will this marriage survive? Will we love each other again?

Will I ever get married?
When we find Fear walking alongside us, we can choose to either surrender our thoughts to God or to suffocate in our anxiety and panic. By reminding ourselves of God’s character, we can silence our unwanted companion Fear. Over time our surrender to God leads us to confidence and assurance in Him.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see… And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. – Hebrews 11:1, 6

God will do the supernatural, but we need to do the natural.

How do we silence fear and begin walking by faith? We seek God through prayer and fasting to hear His voice. Something stirs inside our spirits about which direction to take and the Truth to believe. We take one step at a time even if our human brain can’t comprehend God’s logic.

When Jesus healed many people in the New Testament, individuals had pursued him. Whether that was through touching Jesus’ cloak, telling Jesus about their illness, or cutting open a roof to see Jesus, the person experiencing pain and uncertainty pursued God’s wisdom and abilities. In the same way, we need to intentionally get closer to God and be obedient to taking the next steps He’s called us to walk.

Our healing and answered prayers lead to response.

After Jesus healed Simon’s mother-in-law, she began to wait on them. Once hearing of her story, people in the city responded by bringing their sick to him (Mark 1). When we walk through tough circumstances and experience God’s mercy and healing, our hearts can’t help but love the God whose plans and abilities were better than our own. The people around us can’t help but see that change and desire that love and protection for their spheres.

Allow your fear to lead you to surrender, your surrender to lead to peace and healing, and your peace and healing to lead to response. While we are caught up in the details of our life, God is orchestrating a grander picture. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. His wisdom is greater than our wisdom. His heart is larger than our heart. What seems impossible and unattainable, God has the ability to achieve. God simply desires to plant our seeds of fear and grow them into flowers of faith.



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