I believe in the power of journaling. Ever since I was in elementary school, I have journaled. While my youthful years were based solely on who was popular and what random activity my friends and I decided to do for that day, my more recent years of journaling have developed into writing about humanly-unattainable dreams, big life decisions, and celebrations of answered prayers. Countless times journaling has helped me sort through the emotions and uncertainties life throws.
I have not journaled much since 2012, busy pursuing my Masters in Accountancy, finishing my CPA certification, and adjusting to being a newlywed. I have slid away from my passion of journaling, blaming my busy schedule. However, this past January I felt convicted that now is the time to pick up the laptop and write. However, this time my journaling is not just for my personal benefit, but for public display. During our church’s 21 Days of Prayer and Fasting in January, God revealed to me that now is the time to pursue the dream He has placed in the depths of my spirit: writing curriculum for women.
So this blog entry may seem like a simple post, but it truly is the beginning of my faith journey. I go back and forth on whether to write… Will I have anything to say? Will anyone want to listen? How will I find time when I work full-time and have a family? Ultimately, it is not I who will have anything to say; it is God. If God truly wants this to happen, I will do my earthly part and He will do the supernatural.
And so you will bear testimony to me. But make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves. For I will give you words and wisdom that none will be able to resist or contradict. – Luke 21:13-15
As I face this decision, there are two options: faith or fear. And I have a choice to make. Will I cripple myself with fear and be paralyzed by uncertainty? Or will I step out in faith and trust God will carry me further than I can take myself? So here’s to my leap of faith and my first step into pursuing the impossible and trusting God for the unbelievable.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but I have given you a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline. – 2 Timothy 1:7